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Finding The Best Of Me - Part 1

I am learning more and more about myself, life and others everyday. I feel like I view things from the outside at times. Like I’m not really a part of something I am a part of. It’s strange that I am secretly enjoying my new found “freedom”. At first I wasn’t sure if I would enjoy it or not. I find myself clicking with new folks and finding new things to do. I picked up some old activities and now wonder what made me stop doing them.

Now, I am not saying I am 100% loving my new “freedom”. I do miss him, but after a moment of two I think of the mean words and actions he did. Then the feeling my heart has now for him returns. I think it’s like when you change jobs or move to a new house. You miss certain aspects of the previous situation, job or home but you are glad you have moved forward.

I get the question daily do I think we will reconcile. I honestly am not sure. I don’t want to say no because you should never say never. Though I must admit there is a lot, no… a ton of work that needs to be done before I can see any reconciliation happening. I know that the work can be done, but not so sure certain folks will take the steps to get it done.

I love my friends and family during this time in my life more than I think I ever have. I have learned more about myself and them because of their words and actions in the last few weeks. I don’t think I ever realized some of the things they have told me about myself until now. It’s amazing the traits we each naturally have and others see so well when we don’t. I am glad that I now know that have certain traits.

I have this saying on my Myspace page, but it really is and has described me over the last few years: “I am continuously evolving into a better me!”

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All-Mi-T [Thought Crime] Rawdawgbuffalo said…
u write well. hope u dont mind the drive by and do chk me out one day if u can
4/29/08, 5:29 PM
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