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After not feeling myself for about two weeks I decided I have to make some changes. I have been unhappy and unsatisfied in a few areas of my life. I have a problem with with internalizing things. This is  based on the fact that most people do not want to hear you vent and talk about your problems, fears, ect. Anyway... 
I know that I need a change. One bigger than I can do alone. I need a change, no blessing in my career. As far as romantic relationships need a change... maybe a break... no I need the right man. Personally I believe I have great friends. They are positive, supportive, God loving, and most of praying friends. But I know that I could even do better in that department.
While thinking about the changes I want I thought about the changes in my life since I came to Atlanta. Since I ended my marriage. Since I started graduate school. I noticed a few things that were consistent. Some good and some bad. God is the main good thing. Bad things included bad relationships, putting…
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Love, Sex & Dating

I came across the most amazing series of sermons on Love, Sex, and Dating yesterday. It really spoke to a few things I have had on my mind and heart lately. Even said  few statements I literally said recently.  It is a four part series and each part is about 45 mins or longer. I watched all of them yesterday plus another sermon by Andy Stanley.

I will discuss the things that directly linked to my mindset lately. First was this quote / question:  Am I the person the person I am looking for is looking for?This is deep but so simple at the same time. I found myself seeing that this was not the case with a guy I briefly dated two months ago. There were multiple things that were not "enough" for me. I realized that we were not a match and partly because he was not what I was looking for and he did not really have a specific thing he was looking for.
I have discussed my self evolution on here before. I believe that those changes and the ones I am still making are preparing me for …

Rough day

Today was a rough day for sure. I am in transition in many ways... education, career, internally, and romantically.  It gets frustrating some days not being where I want to be in any of those segments yet. And part of getting where you want to be is choosing the path wisely. I have to follow my gut and heart about what paths I use to get my desires in all of these aspect.

Please do not think I'm sad or unfulfilled completely. I have so much joy and happiness in my life. I honestly have the best friends in the world. They are supportive and inspirations, each of them in their own way. I have been blessed to have several different groups of girlfriends. I think God knew that I needed different ones for the different segments of my life. I am the happiest and incomplete I have ever been at the same time.

I know that this is a step to the outcome. I am still struggling with the idea of being career focused... well I should say oriented. I am not that kind of person. I am a family focu…

Revive!

I really miss writing! Between graduate school, family, work, and everything else... I have not gotten to write like I use to. Well I write plenty for graduate school, just not on casual topics. Especially my favorite... Relationships.

I haven't use this blog in years and actually started a new one 2 months ago. It only has one post though! I am trying to decide if I want to revive this blog or stay with the new one....

One of the struggles I am having is that I not the person I was when I began writing this blog in 2007. Nor am I the person when I stopped writing it. I stopped using this blog for two reasons: freelance projects and I wanted a break from sharing my love life online. A part of that was linked to the things I went through on this blog. Even though I decided to not share every thing though words, it is here. I went from a engaged to a newlywed to separated to single to in a relationship. Who I am now is built on what I went through during that time. The lessons I lea…

Denita's Birthday

Today is my friend Denita's 27th birthday. Sadly she is not here to celebrate it because her life was taking Jan 2007.

I never lost anyone close to me, not even a family member, so loosing a good friend to murder hit me hard. Not to mention she was murdered the day of my father funeral. To see a great person and someone my age be taken away during the prime of her life changed my view on life. I know that she is in a better place with her bright smile and laugh, but it still hurts.

It hurts in ways I can not explain. In 3 months I will turn 27, and I always think of Denita on my birthday and hers. It's so not to be angry, not just at her life being taken but because there has been no justice no answer no anything! I know people in the court system and have had it explained NUMEROUS time that murder trails take a while to go to court. But that doesn't change my feelings, my pain, my memories...

My only joy is knowing that she is in heaven. No, that's not it. It's also…

I'm Back

I know it's been a good minute, but I've been busy!  I have a few new things on my plate that I am excited about sharing with you!  
I want to first say that I truely appreicate all the feedback I get from my readers!  There has been times over the last few months that I felt my dream of being a writer was not going to ever be reality!  Yes, I had a lot of doubtful moments!  I got emails, texts and IMs asking for more post.  Even just checking on me since I had stopped posting.  I needed that and it touched my heart, for real!  I need you all to know that!  My created juices are back flowing.  I pray for guidance in my personal life and writing career.  I hope that you will continue to support and encourage me.  
Now to updates!
I have a new project that I am working on.  Sadly you have to wait for details.  A few of you know about it, for the others sorry for the wait.  I am working on it daily and hope to publish, yes publish, it early next year!  I'm super excited about it…

SITC #9 Figuring It Out

The hardest part of dating is getting use to the person you’re seeing. We all have habits and traits that others dislike. On top of learning regular stuff about them, you have to learn how to deal with the traits you do not like very much. Trying to figure out if there are more good traits than annoying. Or if you should chop it up as a lost and move on.

Even deciding to move on can be confusing. What things determine when to do so. Right now I am going out and having fun. I would like to date someone that has the traits I would like in next significant other. Just in case it becomes a relationship. At the same time I am not sure if I am finished looking to see what else is out there. I do not want to make the steps toward a relationship when I am not sure if I want to be in one.

Right now I feel like I am currently making those steps with the man I am seeing. I don’t think it’s obvious steps, but we’re a few months into seeing each other. There is daily communication by ins…