Balance

Over the last year I have learned a lot more about myself. I’ve had the chance to add, subtract, reduce and increase many things in my life. I have come to realize that sometimes we desire a change in our lives, but when we get the change it isn’t the way we planned it to be. I know that we as humans can not plan how things actually play out but we all make a blueprint of what we plan. Many times what we plan and what actually happens are different.

I realize now that many things are in our lives for a reason and without (or a reduced amount) we are not complete. This may be our jobs, friends, family, and more. Everything plays apart in making us whole. I know this now.

I made a career change in November. As a result I was working part time. At first I loved having so much free time, but after the first month found myself bored. After having this time, I realize I have to a find balance between all the things in my life. These things include work, family, myself, friends, hobbies and more. They complement each other in my life.

I found myself feeling incomplete the last month or so. I couldn’t figure out why. I realized it was my career. As much as I thought I would enjoy the free time, I actually had too much and was not managing it well. Plus I had to cut back on my shopping and was NOT happy about that.

I have felt that incomplete feeling before. As a result of the lack of good relationships and friendships. Missing someone or something. Having a major change in my life and not knowing what to do next. I’ve also felt it when I need to get rid of things hold me down or pulling me in the wrong directions. I now realize that incomplete feeling is my body and souls way of telling me things. I am learning more and more about myself each day. I truly am being coming a better me and that’s what I’ve been working toward.
I love, self-love!