Apearl's Blog

I am addicted to reading current celebrity news online. One of my favorite sites is . Currently, well actually for a long time now, my favorite celebrity couple is Jay Z and Beyonce. Or should I say, Mr. & Mrs Carter! They are both at the top of the music game, stylish and seem to be pretty cool people. Plus I got to love any woman who is consistently fly and drop hot songs! I came across pictures of their new home they started building 6 months ago in, Scarsdale, NY the same city they filed their marriage license in. Check the pics out.

I posted a little over a month ago about me seperating from my husband. Well it’s official we are not working things out. It is a wrap and time to move on. I don't plan to (and haven't been) sit around and wait for him to get some sense. Life is WAY too short, I have been shown this over and over. Between the job, marriage and other life issues I have come to the point where I've decided to enjoy life. I refuse to sit around, settle or wait. The time is now because tomorrow is so not promised! If you are reading this and wondering what I mean… I am going to flirt, date and see where it leads. There is no time like the present. So it’s official I’m accepting applications! LOL I really dispise dating and the getting to know you crap, but it is what it is (deep sigh).

This week’s quote is from a song I have really been feeling the last two weeks. I am a huge hip hop fan and music junkie. Though I am really into the lyrics, though the beats will get me at times. “ God will take you to hell, just to get you to heaven Like a change in direction, even when you ain't planned it All you can do it handle it, worst thing you can do is panic Use it to your advantage, avoid insanity matters To conquer every obstacle, make impossible possible Even when winning is illogical, losing is still far from optional Somehow I rise above my problems and remain here Yeah, and I hope the picture’s painted clear If your heart is fill with faith then you can't fear… Let go and let god deal with it ” No Matter What by T.I. (Clifford Harris Jr) The corus alone got me but several lines from this song had to be pulled and given attention. I didn’t post the corus though. The first line says so much. The hard times are worth it in the end! Make a way out of no way (make i...

Over the last week I have heard how strong I am and how well I am dealing with this situation. I am a little disturbed it wasn't harder for me. I have learned or adapted to dealing with bull in my life. Especially from folks close to me. I have gotten to the point, I do not put anything past anyone. I know that seems crazy, but I don't trust 100%. I have people I am close to, but if they stepped out of the box, I would boo-hoo for a few days. Then, I'd pick myself up and keep moving. I do not feel the need to sulk in what was and could of been. Also I don't feel bad when someone does some bs. That was their choice and I have to deal with it. And morning a little and moving on is my way. Sadly dealing with so much bs in my life has allowed me to turn my feelings on and off quickly. I shut off and refuse to care or desire to care for the individual passing out the bs. I limit or cut off all association with the person. I feel no need to continue the communication, friends...

I am a HUGE Sex and The City fan. So in my internet stalking of the movie I came across a few clips and a longer trailer ! And there is more... yes I know you're thinking this is more than enough! I came across an article I thought was cute and funny titled Love Lessons from Sex and the City . Check it out and enjoy. I either watched this show way too much or really related to the article, either way I like it!

Frustrated isn’t even the word right now. I am so unhappy with my job. I am in a position I am over qualified for and causes me to work evenings and Saturdays. Which results in me having less time to spend with my daughter. I have been looking for another job, but have not came across anything yet. I wonder if anything I find will be fulfilling to me though. I am not career oriented, jobs and careers are the last thing on my mind. I really want to just write and take pics and get a check for it. Yea, I know they might not be large checks at first. Lately though my creativity for writing has been at a low. I am considering doing an autobiography though. Since it doesn’t require much creativity. I am hoping to start working with a photographer in the next month, though this dag-gone job is hindering me doing so on Sats! I feel kind down and out today. I know that things will get better considering a month ago I felt like the whole world had falling down around me and yesterday I felt on ...

I have come to realize that being unhappy is a choice. I know you’re like “What the hell?” We make the choice to stay at the jobs, in relationships, to deal with the people or go to the places that make us unhappy. Also we let certain things get to us that we could choose to ignore or accept that we can not control. Working a job you’re unhappy doing may not always be a choice 100%. Yes, someone does have to bring home the bacon but can you bring it home doing something else? Have you looked or pursued another job? (Yes, I know the economy is a hot mess) Have you considered what makes you happy and how you can profit from that? Our hobbies can be our careers! Being with someone who makes you unhappy can be a downer on your overview of many things. I know nothing is perfect, but finding the line between what you can deal with and what you can’t is important. Many of us get comfortable in our situations. We feel we have companionship, when we really don’t. We have a roommate! Your signif...