Apearl's Blog

I came across the most amazing series of sermons on Love, Sex, and Dating yesterday. It really spoke to a few things I have had on my mind and heart lately. Even said  few statements I literally said recently.  It is a four part series and each part is about 45 mins or longer. I watched all of them yesterday plus another sermon by Andy Stanley. I will discuss the things that directly linked to my mindset lately. First was this quote / question:   Am I the person the person I am looking for is looking for?   This is deep but so simple at the same time. I found myself seeing that this was not the case with a guy I briefly dated two months ago. There were multiple things that were not "enough" for me. I realized that we were not a match and partly because he was not what I was looking for and he did not really have a specific thing he was looking for. I have discussed my self evolution on here before. I believe that those changes and the ones I am still making a...

Today was a rough day for sure. I am in transition in many ways... education, career, internally, and romantically.  It gets frustrating some days not being where I want to be in any of those segments yet. And part of getting where you want to be is choosing the path wisely. I have to follow my gut and heart about what paths I use to get my desires in all of these aspect. Please do not think I'm sad or unfulfilled completely. I have so much joy and happiness in my life. I honestly have the best friends in the world. They are supportive and inspirations, each of them in their own way. I have been blessed to have several different groups of girlfriends. I think God knew that I needed different ones for the different segments of my life. I am the happiest and incomplete I have ever been at the same time. I know that this is a step to the outcome. I am still struggling with the idea of being career focused... well I should say oriented. I am not that kind of person. I am ...

I really miss writing! Between graduate school, family, work, and everything else... I have not gotten to write like I use to. Well I write plenty for graduate school, just not on casual topics. Especially my favorite... Relationships. I haven't use this blog in years and actually started a new one 2 months ago. It only has one post though! I am trying to decide if I want to revive this blog or stay with the new one.... One of the struggles I am having is that I not the person I was when I began writing this blog in 2007. Nor am I the person when I stopped writing it. I stopped using this blog for two reasons: freelance projects and I wanted a break from sharing my love life online. A part of that was linked to the things I went through on this blog. Even though I decided to not share every thing though words, it is here. I went from a engaged to a newlywed to separated to single to in a relationship. Who I am now is built on what I went through during that time. The lessons I ...